I miss her so much

She was always there for me, she could make me feel better, she could make me feel okay.
She was my best friend, she was everything i loved in this world and i can't stand the thought of her not being anymore.

I look at her pictures everyday, i think about her everytime i walk into my house. Everytime im at the shops buying food, everytime i have a bad day and i just wanna come home and hold someone. She was my baby and i hate it here without her.

I've lost so many things in such a short period of time. My friends, my home, my partner, my career. But she's the one that hurts the most.
Even when all the people in my life were shitty she was always good. she was always just herself and perfect.

I miss her so much. I feel so guilty. Everyone always says she probably had the best life of any rabbit and its probably true but i still feel bad. I just wanna hold her one more time and feel her fur, smell her, hear her grind her teeth in happiness. I wanna hear her snore at night and make weird whistling sounds.

I don't think I've ever loved anything as much as that rabbit bar my mum and my ex. I just wish the whole world could of met her. Not a single person didn't like her, she was this super friendly super quirky little badass that just did what she wanted.

I don't think it will ever stop hurting and it makes me not want to get anything else i could get close to. If my cat Bella goes too im done for. It's not the same with her though. I love her but everyone knows how cats are. Onyx was affectionate and sweet, she would lick me when i was sad and patting her. We would go to get her nails done and have coffee with people, she would visit people and make friends wih dogs.

I know it's not her fault, but she left when i needed her the most. I just wish she had a few more months with me, we both would of had a new life and been happy. Oh baby i miss you so fucking much.

We will be together soon dont you worry.