My First Blog Post Ever

Hi,
This is the first time that i'm writing. Not writing on a blog or a forum. But writing in general.
I've been in numerous situations where people told me : you should write down what you feel. You will feel better and it will help you deal with whatever it is you're writing about. But i always found myself maybe to good for that? Idk what stopped me. I bet i never wanted to admit that im not fine. And i should write to coop with some things.

Well im here, and im gonna write about everything. About what i've discovered about myself .
Who am i as a person and who do i want to become?
What is my potential and how can i live up to it?
What about all these guys that have broken my heart, is it really because my dad left me when i was starting my teens?
Am i really this girl with daddy issues?
Am i this 'i fuck with douchebags because my father didn't love me' kinda girl.
Am i really this BASIC??

Has my entire life been about pleasing other people? Making myself unhappy for people that treat me like shit?
Do i even have a mind of my own, I don't facking love myself???

Do i really have these anxieties that are ruining my life. That are stopping me from being happy.
Stopping me from seeing how good of a person i am and reaching for the things i deserve.
And not what my issues make me think im worthy of?
Am i sabotaging everything good? Am i throwing away my passions, my talents on purpose ?
WTF AM I DOING

This will not be a depressing Blog. This will be a blog of me discovering who i am as im writing. It will be uplifting.

There will be some pretty dark thoughts. But i will reach a point where the bad will be replaced by good.

Right here
On this blog