RE: Game Over?
Oh my God, birthdays. Did we have the same sister? I had the same experience, not to mention the cake. Behind the cake I didn't like, eating a plain dry biscuit was forbidden. And then there was the misery with the presents that were unwrapped before I got home from school, and if the presents were nicer or different than I had in mind, I was in for a beating as soon as I got home. And I didn't even know why, because I hadn't even seen the present yet. So for you, birthdays are still not fun, although I do make the best of them, I make them fun for myself, because that's important to me. Even if that means keeping the door closed and just wanting to be alone, because then at least I can do what I want. So you take your pyjamas off? I take mine off as soon as I can, or at least put my bathrobe on over them, so I can stay warm. I also always try to avoid or prevent problems, or be prepared for them, which at least reduces stress and gives me more time for myself.
Teachers, adults will not share...only idiots
I think those adults all learned from the same book on how to torture their children. We were probably born too early—born into a time when this was so rampant that people didn’t even flinch at seeing violence against a child. My mother, that idiot, once told me I used to have unexplained bruises all over my limbs when I was still a baby. Then she walked in and seen my father pinching and squeezing me. She only told me this after I became an adult, and the way she said it... she actually chuckled, as if it were some cute, harmless memory. It’s sickening. I just read a news story about a wife who finally took her husband to court because he caned their son.
Yeah, I change into clothes that I could actually walk down to the lobby in. It’s not because I’m going out; it’s just to feel a little more normal. I’ve even started taking out my old perfumes and wearing them at home, along with a bit of makeup. At the very least, it makes me feel better when I see myself in the mirror.
People say weird things. For example my grandmother always told me how my mother molested me from a few months old... But she frequently ended it by saying: I don't dislike her since she never harmed me (which was a lie since she used her as a slave, scolded at her and took every chance to start a fight...).
Geez, that's really an odd thing to say. Your grandmother is sure a complicated person.