My sleeping habit is now inverted because I can't sleep at night but only during the day
Just recently my sleeping habit is so much different than before because I can't seem to sleep at night until the Sun shows again in the morning. I can't fall asleep and even if I did, it will only last at least an hour or two if I am lucky. However after I ate my breakfast I will feel weary and so I will try to sleep, then I can be able to go to sleep afterwards although still intermittent, it will consume the rest of the morning until 2:00 PM in the afternoon.
I can't afford to skip the times that I will feel sleepy because otherwise it will surely affect my brain health so I just have to compensate the lost times at night that I should be sleeping and sleep the whole morning and much of the day time away. Even though I should be awake during the day, there will not be anything that I can do in those times of the day anyway because my life is just revolving around making blog posts to earn some money, entertain myself by watching videos and listening music from YouTube, eating a little and taking my vitamins and supplements, going for my shower and toilet needs, and going to and from my dialysis clinic.
I am unable to do other things like doing chores around the house, doing a hobby, or much less, to travel around our town. It is so frustrating and I am only patching my boredom by being online, so without the Internet my life is just so boring I might have ended my life many years ago if not for my belief to God that "un-aliving" myself is unforgivable sin to do.
My online "hobby-work" as I call it is what makes me believe that I am productive because at least I am accomplishing something that is useful every single day unlike other people which are dependent to others financially. But maybe I will just have to accept the fact that I am handicapped because I can't do anything anymore to my body and I am only holding-up because of the patchwork I was doing which I believe is really only putting my head above the the water temporarily. But God's mercy and help for my wretched body is what is keeping me alive and I thank God a million times for it because my life seems to still have a purpose.
Life with or without a purpose is one thing but it doesn't really make me feel any better if my body is unable to function close to normality because it is just pointless to live if you have to deal with lots of physical problems like what I am going through for more than the half of time I had spent living in this still wonderful world. My thoughts are still split if I want to ever want to live long because I do not want to deal with the next generation of people who I know is a different breed compared to other generation of people who lived before them because of their exposure to social media, fake news, and bad influences. It is because I am a patient and I am terrified to get hospitalized when Gen Z and Gen Alpha will be my doctors and nurses and you will know what i meant by this if you will get hospitalized yourself.
Hola @criptopie
Eso de tener el sueño totalmente invertido puede ser realmente agotador
Me gusta cómo lo expresas con tanta honestidad, porque muchos pasan por lo mismo y pocas veces lo dicen. El cuerpo y la mente a veces se desajustan por estrés, preocupaciones o simplemente por cambios en la rutina. Ojalá poco a poco puedas recuperar un descanso más equilibrado, porque dormir bien lo cambia todo.
Gracias por compartir algo tan cotidiano y real, seguro más de uno se sentirá identificado.
Saludos
I already experienced the worst type of insomnia so now I am just thankful if I can be able to sleep for 3 hours straight but I rarely sleep that long.
My sleep pattern is intermittent now and if I would feel that I like to get some rest regardless of the time of day then I will sleep it off so that I can recover of what was lost.
Thanks be to God that I am still surviving despite that I am always going through this issue which had plagued me for decades already.
Thank you for your kind thoughts and concern. 🤟💗
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Gracias por compartir algo tan personal. Vivir tantos años con insomnio no es nada fácil, y se nota la fortaleza con la que lo enfrentas.
Quizás algo que podría ayudarte —y que muchas personas con insomnio crónico no suelen probar— es mantener una hora fija para exponerte a luz natural cada mañana, incluso después de una noche muy mala. No se trata de forzarte a dormir mejor ese día, sino de ayudar poco a poco al cuerpo a reorganizar su reloj interno.
No es una solución rápida, pero a algunos les ayuda a que los períodos de sueño se vuelvan un poco más largos y estables con el tiempo. Ojalá puedas encontrar pequeños descansos que te den alivio.
Que tengas un excelente dia.
@blessedlife 💓
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