I think you're too hard on yourself. Nobody climbs a ladder from the first step to the last in one go. You need to take it one step at a time, one rung at a time. I know a true artist will always be dissatisfied. Trial and error is the key to success. If we look at the famous painting "The Scream," it has many more remarkable aspects than its apparent beauty. I mean, it's not beautiful, but it's an imposing work of art. You don't need to resemble anything; that's where beauty lies: creating something that reflects your thoughts. Critical thinking matters little. What do you feel when you paint, whether it turns out well or badly? What motivates you? That feeling is beautiful; that's what matters.
That depends on how high the ladder is... I can climb an average ladder in one go. Is that a Cuban saying, the one about the ladder?
Those steps carved into the rocks are a different story, but they often have more than 500 steps. Did I ever tell you that I once fell down them on my way down (not up)?
I'm not always dissatisfied, even when it's nothing like what I had in mind. I suspect that my subconscious is at work, compensating for my lack of possibilities and skills.
Interesting that you mention The Scream. LOL
I don't believe I have thoughts that reflect my art. I often think: is there a hair there? If the brush falls out, is it from the cat or my head? How do I get that mess off? I often laugh about this with my youngest, who says: a critic definitely says this or that. Then I say to her: then you say that's not true and your mother is just a lazy artist who didn't feel like finishing it. Which, incidentally, is often true. I think it's enough halfway through or even at the beginning. Then I think: I know how this is made, on to the next project (I think the Mona Lisa was made in the same way, there was no end to it and it kept getting carried away LOL).
Thank you for your response and your words.
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