Your thoughts about making a new year resolution are valid and the things you've written shows you're ready to improve and do better this year but in my own opinion, I rather approach life each day with resilience and gratitude for the new day rather than set out goals I might not work towards achieving them. Many just write down their resolution for writing sake and abandon them two to three days after. This year, I just want to be intentional about myself and growth and that's the approach I'll wake up to each day.