RE: Last Chat On The Deadbed, An entry for @wakeupkitty's contest
Do you say all this? I wonder who asked you those questions or are you just in bed and sharing all your thoughts?
I tell you if I commit suicide I don't have regrets and I doubt most of who do have regrets. They will feel lost, are abandoned, die lonely, were bullied, and never understood, like, in high debt and in high need of a listening ear. So this was the best solution since no one helped them. None of all those who preach love and understanding but watch how you are raped, beaten up, you name it.
So @rokhani you are in bed dying, and you like to have chat with whomever stops by? You don't want some privacy to think instead of people nagging and asking you questions? It sounds like a burden to me especially if I am in pain. It's very hard to concentrate on pain if people are complaining and fighting at the side of your bed about unpaid bills, how they should survive, if you can give the pin of your debit card and who will pay the rent for the house, the insurance of the car and why A should share the TV with B while C receives the bike and books.
It sounds like a horror to me, even without fighting people to see a crowd gathered around my bed waiting till I a m dead. They are bored because it takes a long time and they have better things to do like eating out, watching a series and posting on Steemit, trying to win a nomination and see if the wallet has enough to powerup or what if in the worst case scenario a power down is needed to burn me since a grave is way too expensive. So they all get nervous are whispering, checking their phones since life goes on, blaming another while it takes so long and nobody puts the kettle on to make some tea.
Of course some feel sad, others are busy and they tell you it doesn't fit them if you die right now since you promised to give 20 bucks for the birthday of Tim, Jake and Susy and the cake should be paid and next a holiday was planned on Bali which can't be cancelled for a funeral.
While you are dying the last thing you can do is trying to make others feel better and you can't stop thinking: who will comfort me during those last miserable minutes I spend in this terrible bad with a bumpy mattress and itchy blanket. I stink and the mosquitoes and flies doesn't make dying easier.
So, now it's your turn, my dear friend. Write a comment and say how annoying it is if you are dying and others attract all the attention.