You visited Nihon then. I don't like receiving gifts, but giving is a necessity. In Japan it makes sense a little, as they are not that consumerist, especially in the rural parts. They are more inclined to buy something for others as well. I don't get Valentine's either, it just does not resonate with me.

I read about your early school experience. Although it can be a traumatic experience, I chuckled, as I was like no... don't do that...you'll regret it later. It is easy now to compartmentalize, as we are older and understand these things. But a younger you wouldn't know.
I think there is beauty in that, when you don't know, and you think you know.

Btw the most human part of us like we can say anything, but we can't.