RE: Perhaps Someone Like Me Doesn't Deserve Friends
You are a perfect friend, at least to me. Might be you need people like you who understand there's no way to be 24/7 happy and how it feels to be hunted, humilated and wanting to die.
I've been where you are and who knows I still am. I noticed though that it doesn't matter if you are silent or try to be invisible. Why on earth shouldn't you scream or cry or say NO! They will dislike you anyway, hate you, beat you up and there's no way they will ever like you!
Your husband is a diagusting product of his family, all badly raised so: leave or hit back! Do all those things they already accuse you from. The worst thing that could hapoen is that they kill you. So what? At least you made them feel miserable.
If they dare to make you eat trash again spit it or throw it into their faces.
Tell your husband that if he ever dares to treat you like a slave a the piece of dirt he is, he will be sorry.
People like these will not understand the word of reason, will never love, never like and only understand fear! So use fear (you know how that feels) to force them to respect you!
You will see that as soon as you are that bitch, witch, whore, thief, lazy person they accuse you from the tables will turn.
Stand straight up, look them in the eyes and take a step forward (no words) needed.
A bully is always a bully and a very insecure person, for sure each one of them have a weak point and a secret they don't want the family to know. Find it!
I send you a warm hug, loads of love and all the courage in the world.
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One has to be a mega bitch to win this game sadly. I will have to be a bigger monster than these monsters. There's a monster in me somewhere but I don't think I have what it takes to outwit them.
That's how it feels to you and me, but even if you try to be that mega monster you are not even 20% as terrible as they are and that's the problem.
It's unwinnable thing
It might feel that way, but it's possible if you look at it from a different angle. Change and you attract fewer abusers, although they and the manipulators will try you out first before they give up (and find a new victim immediately). You can also delete people from your life and... hit te road, leave and make sure that you will never meet them again (it's the best defence if you are not strong enough yet).
Something has to change. I would naively tell them things in the past but now I refuse to answer them and walk into a different room. She tried to pry asking about my health condition, my answer was 'Just like that. Nothing much." Like I said something but never actually answer her question.
Sounds to me as if you gave an answer like: I am fine, no need to worry or ask again. I would avoid having this idea. Instead of words you can also shoot with your eyes at her. My children say I can look very scary...if I do that.
I know that kind of glare. I used to use it on the kids my mother and I babysat whenever they got too unruly. They would look so terrified that they wouldn't dare move a muscle. LOL
That's the one.
Babysitting is a piece of cake and the best is the most terrible children respect and like you.
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