You are a perfect friend, at least to me. Might be you need people like you who understand there's no way to be 24/7 happy and how it feels to be hunted, humilated and wanting to die.

I've been where you are and who knows I still am. I noticed though that it doesn't matter if you are silent or try to be invisible. Why on earth shouldn't you scream or cry or say NO! They will dislike you anyway, hate you, beat you up and there's no way they will ever like you!

Your husband is a diagusting product of his family, all badly raised so: leave or hit back! Do all those things they already accuse you from. The worst thing that could hapoen is that they kill you. So what? At least you made them feel miserable.
If they dare to make you eat trash again spit it or throw it into their faces.

Tell your husband that if he ever dares to treat you like a slave a the piece of dirt he is, he will be sorry.

People like these will not understand the word of reason, will never love, never like and only understand fear! So use fear (you know how that feels) to force them to respect you!

You will see that as soon as you are that bitch, witch, whore, thief, lazy person they accuse you from the tables will turn.
Stand straight up, look them in the eyes and take a step forward (no words) needed.

A bully is always a bully and a very insecure person, for sure each one of them have a weak point and a secret they don't want the family to know. Find it!

I send you a warm hug, loads of love and all the courage in the world.

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