I missed going to church and I still not losing hope that I can attend again physically
My mind likes to do things, only my mind, but when it comes to executing my plans requiring the use of my physical body, my body's joints will soon protest and so my bed has the last laugh, it will invite me to lay my back on it again and telling me afterwards. "See I told you so." "We are partners in crime", "you do things with me rather than without me".
Well, it is just that, I am a prisoner of this inanimate object whether I like it or not my back will always be affixed on the soft memory foam surface of my bed's mattress. My bones are still not that good enough to allow me to even walk normally and I do not trust my ability to walk, I still needed the wheelchair at my dialysis center even though I can muster the strength to do it.
It is just I look very pitiful when I walk, I am looking as frail as egg shells on the ground not to mention my physical appearance making me as shy as leaves of the Mimosa plant when touched considering that I am an inherently shy person. That is why I am always more quite now than I used to be especially now that I have a speech impediment for what happened to the structure of my mouth, it magnifies my embarrassment to talk to others.
My appearance and disability would not matter so much if pain would not be involved. It really pins me down to stop doing any physical effort no matter how basic it will be like for just sitting around in an hour will prove to be regretful considering that one of my church activity is lasting for about six hours for just sitting alone not to mention the effort of preparing to go to church, going to church, and going back home.
For the mid-week prayer meeting, we often have to talk for some things after the closing prayer and it adds hours to the two hour prayer meeting time. So it will just be a torture in my backbone if I will attend church physically again. I am just hoping and praying that my bones and joints will be able to endure my posture of sitting for extended hours but it will still remain to be a dream for now.
My church (MCGI.org) is an extraordinary church, love is taught and practiced and the brethren will lend a hand if I needed assistance for example. That is why my life is quite complete now because of my affiliation to my church which is ready to help whenever I would contact them. No they will not send me to a private hospital and have my body foxed once and for all, even my relatives will not do that for me nor any Pontious Pilate around will ever lift a finger to help me out, but my church will help within their capacities and that is just enough for me to feel loved and cared for because at least I have something to reach-out when things gets difficult in my life and they will listen and act thanks be to God and the fundamental teachings of the Lord Jesus Christ which is to love.
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Hello friend sorry about your predicament and how you feel about it. I must commend that you are indeed a strong person, most people will not survive this till now but you are coping and living through it. I also commened your church for being kind and helpful to you. May God continue to enrich and bless them in all they do.
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Thank you, I just chose to fight because again, if I can see a glimmer of hope, I will not give-up. I also believe that God gives me his mercy all the time which is probably one great reason on why I am still surviving until now.
MCGI church is taught the basic fundamental teaching of the Lord Jesus Christ which is why I am getting the love and support of the brethren from my local church in any way the can based on their capacities.
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I'm glad you've found good people and community you are shaping your life for Good friends.
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