Hi Miss @wakeupkitty, being a spiritual person, it is a stupid thing for me to think about the fear of physical death because what I should fear about is the fear of my spirit, i.e. not being worthy of God's salvation.

But I do not like the process of physical death given my other health condition. However, I still feel a glimmer of hope that I will not die of liver failure because it seems that vitamin C helps me against viruses considering that I do not eliminate vitamin C from my system because I don't pee anymore and only through dialysis process the vitamin C is washed-out.

I also had lasted a long-long time having the viruses in my body although about Hepatitis C virus, I don't know and it is what makes it complicated but maybe because of my circumstance, doing the megadose of vitamin C, it might not turn bad, but I am just wishing.

Overall I am improving comparatively and this is such a feat because not all patients in my case really survive especially this long so I thank God about what I had achieved already but since I am still dealing with this physical body I still can't help but to feel affected by it mentally and emotionally and nothing that I can di but to suck it all up and deal everything with what I can in my power and with the mercy of God, maybe I can continue to win because after all quite a lot of miracle already happened in my life but I still have to be brave in this battle that I didn't chose.

Thank you for all your encouragement and support Miss @wakeupkitty 😀I really appreciate it all.