RE: I am kind of afraid to die because I don't like the feeling but I have to be brave about it
Friend, if it comes to death we all know we will die and if you people ask they will say the same: I am not afraid to die but that I may die having a lot of pain.
Does everyone had that immense pain? The answer is no although the group dying in bed is small.
My grandfather did because he didn't feel well after dinner on father's day and he had a heartattack.
His son, my uncle had one too early in the morning as he went outside to get firewood. Most like it was unexpected with him. He was found outside in the snow.
Traffic victims die in pain, no one will say that's a great dead, and neither is suffering for many years with mental issues .
I cannot take your pain away or tell you that you will be fine or that there is no reason for you to not die in your bed while you lay comfortable. I also understand why you say that it's better for you to die first instead of those caring for you. I feel the same and with us thousands if not millions of people.
If I read you and see how you live, what you do to improve your health, you are unique. There aren't many people who will do everything in their power week after week, month after month, year after year to improve their health and make the best out of it Most only talk about it and try for a few days or weeks.
Know that I admire you for your strength and will you have to better your life and I am proud to know you and call my friend. You are one of the strongest people I know.
I find it good you talk about this topic since this is what many of us deal with.
There are ways to one can die (except if being in an accident) while not suffering from an immense pain.
Will Hep A + B kill you?
How did you get infected with Hep B? Were you vaccinated? This is something that can heal and the body can make antibodies against. With us it is seen as a sexual disease .
Hep A is transmitted through food and needles (drugs) but it's possible to recover from both and although you deal with many health threatening hardships, it cannot be denied you are doing great unlike the man who died and consumed alcohol.
If it comes to your health you are a miracle already so with you I have good hope you are able to improve your health or at least feel better.
Try to avoid stress no matter how hard it is since stress and lack of sleep will not be good for your well being.
I send you a warm embrace.
Hi Miss @wakeupkitty, being a spiritual person, it is a stupid thing for me to think about the fear of physical death because what I should fear about is the fear of my spirit, i.e. not being worthy of God's salvation.
But I do not like the process of physical death given my other health condition. However, I still feel a glimmer of hope that I will not die of liver failure because it seems that vitamin C helps me against viruses considering that I do not eliminate vitamin C from my system because I don't pee anymore and only through dialysis process the vitamin C is washed-out.
I also had lasted a long-long time having the viruses in my body although about Hepatitis C virus, I don't know and it is what makes it complicated but maybe because of my circumstance, doing the megadose of vitamin C, it might not turn bad, but I am just wishing.
Overall I am improving comparatively and this is such a feat because not all patients in my case really survive especially this long so I thank God about what I had achieved already but since I am still dealing with this physical body I still can't help but to feel affected by it mentally and emotionally and nothing that I can di but to suck it all up and deal everything with what I can in my power and with the mercy of God, maybe I can continue to win because after all quite a lot of miracle already happened in my life but I still have to be brave in this battle that I didn't chose.
Thank you for all your encouragement and support Miss @wakeupkitty 😀I really appreciate it all.
Hey, friend what is this (see underneath) for nonsense?
If Jesus is afraid to be nailed to the cross why can't you and why should you fear god and not being worthy?
I understand that it affects your mental health very well. It is a heavy burden you carry and you do have a lot to worry about and daily fight and look for ways to solve all the problems on your way.
There are days we are up and many days we are down. We can pretend it's the opposite but it isn't. The only thing we know is that we survived this far and this gives us strength because we know we did it again.
If you do feel tired, lay your head dear friend. There's no need to always fight if it isn't it now. Know you are in my mind and you reach out if you need a friend.
A warm embrace to you!