Better days...
I’m feeling better than I did yesterday and the day before that. I don’t know if I’m gonna be happy about it or not. I mean, for the meantime of course, yes I’m happy. But what about in the long run?
You see, the downside of me feeling better is I couldn’t get myself to tell them again I need help. I can and do whenever I feel like I need it right away but they always seem to forget. Whenever I’m ok I just can’t help but smile and laugh like nothing happened.
My sister is getting married soon. They’re preoccupied and I honestly don’t wanna ruin the fun and excitement they’re having. I’m happy for her because she’s happy and all I ever want is the best for her.
So I’ve been thinking, will writing be enough to cure me? If I try really really hard, will it help me feel better and be better? If I channel all my frustrations in drawing or writing or singing and try not to think too much about things, will it help? I’ve done all of these things before but I would do it all again over and over if I can change things little by little. Because until things get lighter, I don’t think I’ll be able to find a doctor.
Do you have any suggestions on how I can write my frustrations without making the readers feel down? Because that’s what I wanna do. I don’t wanna bombard you guys with sadness, but rather spread positivity.
I’m never going to stop hoping for better days and I’m never going to stop trying to get there. One day I WILL be there.
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One day I will be there!! Naka relate ako dto.
Nice one po!
Yes, we will definitely get there. We just have to keep on pushing. Hang in there. We’re here for you too whenever you need it. 😊
It is okay to say and be honest of what you feel. Sharing my pain is making me feel better too. Here's what I can suggest. I do the sandwich approach when sharing my story (This is a method we use when providing feedback at work). First bun will be the positive things. (ie. When I was a kid my dad treated me like a princess. He always carry me on his shoulder....). Then the spread / palaman will be the frustrations, sadness, challenges, etc. (ie. When I grew up he left us for another girl. My world got shattered....). Then the last bun will be for the positive outcome and what you have learned, or what you will do about the sadness, frustrations etc. (ie. The pain I've been through made me appreciate my Mom more. It taught me to love my family more.....) there you go. :)
I understand that you might be going through something, and admitting that you are not ok is the first step. You will get there, Cat and we will be here (even if we don't know each other personally), for you.
Wow! Thank you for this. I’ll try this one next. And thank you for being there for me. Always remember that just as you are, we are here for you as well. We can beat this. Virtual hugs! 😊
@caat I think you're doing exactly what you need to be doing. When in doubt, ask!
First off, I really appreciate your open and sincere post here. We all go through these types of struggles in one way or another, and I'm sure there's a lot of people who need to know that as well.
I totally get what you mean by not wanting to bring down your readers. One approach that I'd recommend is to experiment with feeling better.
You could write honest posts (such as this one) where you say, hey guys, today I'm not feeling well and thus I experimented with ______ to see if it made me feel any better. The blank there could be something like meditation, or art, or exercise.
There's a lot of ways to approach this, but I think if you took a proactive, empowering approach, I think you'd find it helpful and interesting for readers!
Thank you for being so awesome @caaat. I'm wishing you all the best.
I write all about empowerment psychology and often times I write about how to overcome difficult emotions. You might enjoy my stuff. I'd love to hear your thoughts about my recent post: How To Activate Your Mind's Propulsion Systems
Thank you so much for this. I read the article you made and it really is empowering. Sometimes I feel like my thoughts are just all over the place. Lots of things I wanna run away from and so are the things that keep me trying and going. I need to focus on how I think maybe? Because sometimes I’m thinking about something else and all of a sudden I’m lost to a different track.
I’ll keep in mind what I learned from your post and try my best to focus on identifying my pulls and pushes. I’ll try writing more. Drawing and singing more as well. It’ll get my mind off of negative things and hopefully relax me so I can focus.
Ugh. Sometimes I feel like I know what to do to help myself but I can’t execute fr some reason. It’s frustrating.
@caaat I think that the most powerful thing that I've realized, especially when I'm feel sad, anxious, or depressed - is that it's temporary. And because it's temporary, it means that things can and will change.
I've also noticed that oftentimes, what I'm feeling in the moment can change. So if I'm feeling depressed or even fatigued, I can change that. The simplest way to do that is to start doing the things that I know make me feel better. One of those ways is through art, another way is by moving my body through exercise or dance... there's a lot of ways to change how you feel.
But I think the most important thing to remember is that you can. And when you remember and believe that, then you're much more likely to do those things, more often.
Thanks for reading my post! I'm glad you found it useful :)
This is true. Sometimes I think I’m doubting that I can and so I couldn’t. I need to always remember this. I’m following you for more of this. It will help e a lot if I’m always reminded by these truths because honestly, sometimes, I just forget. I subconsciously create my own false truth and believe it (only when I’m in that phase).
I agree, reminders are so important! Until you establish it as a habit (AKA a subconscious pattern) you need the little things to get your mind to think in the ways you want. I think forgetfulness is probably our greatest weakness. With so much stimulation in the world, it's just so easy to forget. BUT its also easy to set yourself up for success by simply leaving notes for yourself, choosing to affirm what you are, and reading literature / watching videos that embody those truths.
So glad to hear you're following my channel. I think it will help :)
Hi @caaat I know the pain of smiling and telling everyone I am ok when I am really not.
They have this notion that HR people are perennially salty (those working in compenben) and bubbly (those in Employee engagement) Since my prime duty is making people happy I often need to have a smile plastered on my faster even if I sometimes want to strangle people or plain drop kick them!
Some people deserve a highfive in the face with a chair!!
Anyway going back mini rant there. Its ok to feel down, its ok not to feel ok (sounds oxymoronic) , that you are hurting and in pain.
writing has done wonders to me. I had three major depression episodes and the last one during October 2017 was really bad. I seeked help. I wrote a lot. I ate a lot. Anything I can do to cope.
I was pretty glad Steemit happened. So dont worry about your readers being bummed out by your writing whats important is for you to release it.
Writing is a very cathartic and has proven to be very effective in my end.
You have to know @caaat that we are here. Your Ohana will be here without any judgement just support, will not say things you don't want hear unless you need us. We are always ready to listen.
I don’t even know what I have. I just got used to smiling and laughing in front of people and the only time I can be really honest about my feelings is when I’m writing (typing) it.
I feel like I’m two different person in one body sometimes. I love laughing with people I enjoy it s much but there are times I don’t even wanna see people. Literally. Idk. I said I can be really honest when I’m writing but thinking about it now, I don’t even remember how many times I pretended to be so happy and bubbly while feeling so down. Idk.
But you’re right, steemit is helping me in voicing out what I feel and it’s in a way a relief.
Thank you! Really. All of you who never gets tired of sending good vibes and encouragement to people who constantly need it. Thank you ohana!!!
I have those days I don't want to see people as well. My anti social tendencies when it's high i just lock myself and play video games.
Be honest in your writing let it all out