Don’t Call Me a Commie or Utopianist Baby!

The problem with the world is that the intelligent people are full of doubts, while the stupid ones are full of confidence. ― Charles Bukowski

First of all, I’m part of the full of confidence group. Stupid af. Here let me prove it - when I'm in the kitchen and start to bla bla about world change and shit, someone would call me a utopianist, and here's my uneducated answer:

ahhhhhh, everyone wants to become a better pianist. Or a commie, commie? Like uhmmmm, come on you?

It is probably much safer for me to be stupid because I get hurt pretty quickly (it was just how I was made, sorry!). You see, most of the time I have no idea what I’m talking about, I can only define things based on my experiences in real life. Yeah sure, I’m the uneducated you all fear of, and I’m taking over the world, muwahaha. The problem with these labels is that you try to enclose a person in this tiny little bubble of yours hoping that person will become just like you, just like you. You project your own realities to other people, you own insecurities, and of course, I could be like that sometimes or most of the time - you tell me. Be careful of the definitions though, someone out there who is so knowledgeable about everything is always ready to attack you.

Go easy on me political big boys who like to argue on the internet instead of going out there and knowing the real shit happening around the world. For me to aspire change means I have suffered enough, yes, it is normal for me to dream of a better world - availability of food, fresh water for me down here, and not be a cheap wage slave and receiver of all shit anymore.

This shit's got to go! - Jacque Fresco

The problem with people who call others commie or utopianist is that they don’t want to wake up - truth hurts, yeah I know. It is more convenient to believe what we were lead to believe instead of welcoming change and be open to better things.

Why wouldn’t I dream of equality? I am a baby of inequality for chrissake! I look around and there are so much excess and waste in this world and it makes me sad, awwwww. Few people up there are basking in their accumulated wealth while people like me scavenge. There would be hunger, famine, climate change, depletion of natural resources and environmental degradation as long as my few daddies up there make profit the driving force of this economy. Why have more and more? I don't really get it. Why can’t I and the likes of me have UBI instead? When I was a kid I would cry so hard because of suffering. Now that I’m old and a bit happier, I don’t suffer that much anymore in a sense of having nothing, but the memory remains, it haunts me like a ghost, like a stalker every night that invades my mind - wherever I am in this world. It sucks to remember and I’m pretty sure you would not wish that on anyone.

I remember when I was still active on Facebook, I would post silly things - like how a big nation would do sillier things to our marine life (which I’m more worried about by the way), and of course, I would blame the ruler and not my friends. Why would I blame the innocent, ignorant people? Nevertheless, I was accused by a friend I met during my travel that - I don’t know what I’m talking about, in defense of his beloved leader. He started preaching about political terms and definitions, look I don’t care about this political shit especially when it doesn’t do a goddamn thing in my life and the lives of others. Why wouldn’t I know my own problems? I’m surprised how intelligent people are so clouded that they don’t see the real thing out there, of course, they wouldn’t know until they have experienced and witness something harsh, or until they have waken up.

I believe everything is just pure self-interest. When I was a kid, between my highly sensitive years, 5-12, I thought everything would harm me, everything was a threat, I was so unsafe. And because of that, I learned not to trust anyone because everything was all about themselves. Everyone would just treat me like a commodity. Now that I'm an adult, I thought the same to the political leaders and do-gooders out there. Everyone will hurt me - you too. EVERYONE - I couldn't take it anymore, fuck!!!!!!!!

Anyway, sorry about that. The point is, in the end, people do good to make themselves feel good - and don’t deny it. I feel good too when I help the helpless help themselves.

Sometimes I feel like traveling just makes me witness more shit out there you know, like more than what I have already experienced. As you all know, I am not traveling to attend a full-moon party or consume a lot of drugs - maybe just a little. It is easy to judge people when you’re sitting there, cowering behind your computer and trying to make a point to someone you haven’t even met or known in real life. Go get a life.

We can not solve our problems with the same level of thinking that created them ― Albert Einstein

I believe that nothing is going to change if you are still in that same level of mindset and if you are judging and labeling those who only try to achieve social reform in order to live longer and have better lives. Greed and ignorance are the symptoms of the current paradigm - stop justifying it. And if you don’t make any effort to wake yourself up, your children and your children’s children will suffer, no more planet earth for them soon. Nevermind you.