I understand. Thank you! I have never been the kind of person to take the easy way out. I'm not upset about him being the in same space, it actually is good for me because it makes me confront my issues instead of trying to hide or run away from them. I feel more free and like I am letting go of the trauma from the past with just these last two posts. I really does help. I'm glad because there is worse yet to come and some of them are really big road blocks for me currently.
I appreciate that he has the same opportunity to heal as I do. Most places he would be ostracized for his past actions, but just like you said, he also needs to heal from horrors in his past. It will benefit him and ultimately our children if he does.
I do feel safe here. That is something very new to me. Even well before my husband I can't ever remember feeling security in life. No one is perfect and I'm sure I have mistakes ahead of me, however they will be much fewer and far between then what I have already brought about in my life because I live much more consciously then I have before. Thank you for everything! All day, everyday, thank you!