RE: Abused & Rising Above: The First Time
It is very scary to share such vulnerable dark times. You have shown ever since first coming here that despite the trauma, baggage and physical ailments that you are very strong and brave.
I have seen you constantly pay attention, reflect and evolve. This is quite potentially the most valuable skill one can have!
I have a lot of compassion for humanity even the ones such as your former husband. While how he treated you is obviously not respectable he too had a life of abuse and never knew freedom, support or love.
This is why I still provide him the same opportunity I provide for you. A fresh start, an opportunity to heal and to actually do something valuable with this life.
As you have seen you are safe here and as long as you are here I will take care of you, hold space for you and make sure everyone including him treats you the way you deserve to be treated.
I have put him in his place but have not punished him for any of his past trespasses. I hope that he like you will heal and find health and happiness within and without. I will continue to hold him and everyone accountable and make sure that everyone here enjoys freedom and great opportunity. Hopefully no one will forsake or trespass that as I do not want to have to enforce the law.
You know you can trust me and that if there is every any help you need you only need communicate. I try and pay attention to everything and make sure everything is well but I have a lot of responsibility and a lot more people than you to look out for and take care of. So remember that it is your responsibility to communicate so that I can provide solutions should I not have already.
∞§∞Blessings∞§∞
I understand. Thank you! I have never been the kind of person to take the easy way out. I'm not upset about him being the in same space, it actually is good for me because it makes me confront my issues instead of trying to hide or run away from them. I feel more free and like I am letting go of the trauma from the past with just these last two posts. I really does help. I'm glad because there is worse yet to come and some of them are really big road blocks for me currently.
I appreciate that he has the same opportunity to heal as I do. Most places he would be ostracized for his past actions, but just like you said, he also needs to heal from horrors in his past. It will benefit him and ultimately our children if he does.
I do feel safe here. That is something very new to me. Even well before my husband I can't ever remember feeling security in life. No one is perfect and I'm sure I have mistakes ahead of me, however they will be much fewer and far between then what I have already brought about in my life because I live much more consciously then I have before. Thank you for everything! All day, everyday, thank you!
Yes you will make mistakes and have hard time, but I will be here and not only will you use safe but I will make sure you have the opportunities and support you need to heal and process.
I am grateful you are choosing to face all this and not run. I know how hard it has been in the past, wanting to change, wanting things to be different yet having no where to go, no support no help.....
Its so sad how you reached out and were actually denied even while being threatened. Just goes to show the kind of world we live in and why it is so important to me to create and sustain the Garden of Eden. So that people actually have an opportunity to be safe, supported and heal.
∞§∞Blessings on the way∞§∞