That's exactly what I am doing. I can't go more into debt but I moved here because they offer expanded medicaid and finally am taking advantage. I have an appt this Mon to see a urologist. I already used illicit measures to get meds in the past but decided I really DO need a cystoscopy and don't need to dabble in street stuff to try to get relief. I will be a solider and work through this. I never plan to let myself become inebriated again to the point that I lose control and give in to that voice which usually I keep at bay.