Yeah, not to be conceited, but my life is really fucking amazing. I'm so lucky that I get to go and be a part of these things. I'm happy to share the experience here, but I'd be happier if you went. The big burn is hard and expensive, but there are regionals all over the world and many are affordable. I definitely have weekends where I probably spend less going to a burn than going out, once you have the gear. If you're interested message me on discord and I will get you pointed in the right direction.