My Caregiver Video Blog/Vlog-"I'm Going Through a Very Difficult Time In My Life But I Want To Be Real About It"

I don't want to ever be something I'm not....I want to always show the real me even though I struggle to do that sometimes.
In this video blog, I don't have any fancy pictures or poetic words to share. I want to be completely real and honest with you and that is why I recorded the video that I just uploaded.

Being a full-time co-caregiver for my father for the past 5 years, working part-time in my sister's small business, along with balancing all other aspects of my life has taken its toll on me and I won't be untruthful about it.... It has caused me to think a lot about the meaning of life and what really matters, as well! Authenticity is not always so attractive but it's Real and I would rather be Real than Fake on any day of the week!

This is a very difficult time for me and I don't want to hide that or to be project something I'm not. I simply can't put up a a facade just so others will see a fake version of myself that doesn't exists.

Caregiving isn't just a job or a small task as any caregiver will tell you if they're open about it. From cleaning the c-pap machine, bathing, catheter changing, vitals checks, special food prep, medication, insulin administration, bathroom assistance, multiple doctors appointments and transfers in and out of the vehicle are just some of the duties that confront me every single day. Weekends and nights don't reduce the amount of assistance needed.

Thankfully, my mother helps me tremendously and works right along side of me, but I worry about her even though I need her help. My sister also helps in every way that she can while maintaining her small business and life, too.
The days can be long and exhausting, be challenging to your personal health and it's not always easy to stay encouraged, but you know that you have no other choice but to stay the course.

Not only has Steemit been an outlet for me, but it also has been a beacon of hope because I see it as an opportunity to help make a difference for my family and especially for my father who has been disabled from a stroke these past five years. Nursing homes have and never will be an option because I want to provide an environment is much better.....Home!

I'm thankful that God has brought us through some major valleys, I know that there are many more mountains still to climb. But for the time being, I have realized that this process has caused my wants and desires to change along the way. There's nothing more I would like to do than to be able to come to a place of financial blessing to where I could build a walk-in shower so that I could bathe my dad more easily. Or perhaps be able to have enough money to buy a handicap van that has an automatic lift to help get him and his wheelchair in the vehicle with relative ease. Oh, how that would save my back. Or to have enough money each month to where I can focus more comfortably on my duties and responsibilities as a caregiver rather than having to worry about paying a utility bill at the last minute.

These are some of the reasons why cryptocurrencies and especially Steemit, have brought me a ray of hope. Hope! Such a beautiful word it is! I believe in hope and know that it is the one thing that we all must have to get through any situation. I know that I am not alone when it comes to struggles and fully realize that there are those who go through much more than what I ever could have imagined.

I want to be all that I can be and to succeed in every area, but I also want to be real about my journey along the way. I could certainly carry on and share more but I just want to thank you all for the amazing and kind support that I receive from you all each and every day. Your upvotes, resteems and comments are always so very welcomed from me. I really enjoy getting to know all of you and look forward to making many more friends along the way. You can follow me @breakingtonight

Have a good day! :)