"Rest in peace, Grandma Jennie. You were the best. I didn't know I would miss you so much. I can't stop crying. I'm sorry i left after the graveside service, I just couldn't handle any more. I love you. You always had my back and were my biggest supporter. You knew I could do anything I set my mind to. I'm sorry if I have turned out to be a disappointment. I love you so much. I feel overwhelmed with grief. Everything I see, think, or do reminds me of you. My love of gardening, the way i cook, the messes I make, half finished projects. All you. I'm proud to be your granddaughter. I hope you were proud of me as well. I love you."
My brothers, Grandma, me, and my parents
I have been bawling all day. Did I cry the day she died? Not really. But I definitely have been crying since her funeral.
The sun did not come out today. It has stayed behind the fog and the clouds. It rained a bit on us. I have heard that is a sign of good luck, for it to rain on your funeral. It washes the sins and demons away. It rained on Grandpa Jim, her husband, funeral too. I remember it well. His death was a shock. One that was unexpected. He was fine one night, and gone by the next morning. Grandma spent several days in the hospital and in the nursing home....waiting for death. Her mind had gone months before so "grandma" wasn't really there. Just her body, which was no longer the chubby, spray body of my grandma. I haven't been to her house yet. I know it is expected of me. I just didn't have the courage to do it today. I regret it. I miss my grandma.
My nephew and nieces and my kids with Grandma.
I could write pages and pages on my her, but if I try, I'll just sit here bawling and unable to see the screen and no one wants to read that. So I'll stop here. Thanks for reading. I will probably write more as memories pop up, if no one minds.
She was a very special lady, Heather, and I know she meant the world to you and your family. @auntdeb took the words right out of my mouth. There are no rules for grieving. You do what you can and what you need to do and just know that you have so many friends who care for you and we’re here when you need us. Sending lots of big hugs your way. Love you. ❤️❤️❤️
Hugs, @hethur240. You cry all you want. There are no rules for grieving. Eventually the happy memories will outnumber the sad ones. Just remember to be gentle with yourself along the way.
Oh, my dear, I'm so sorry... I understand how you feel. My father left this year. I believe in the immortality of the soul, we will certainly meet with them. Hug you, my dear
So sorry to hear of the loss of your grandmother. They are truely special and each brings a special love to the family. It's difficult to lose them, I will be thinking of you❤️
I didn't know her before her last few years when she was already going, but she had one heck of a personality!! She's the kind of old lady I aspire to be one day, full of energy and stories, secrets and random ramblings!! Her secrets were my favorite, she wouldn't tell you the secret, but she would tell you she had one and leave you burning with curiosity!! She loved baby girl and remembered her on her last good day. She was always kind unless she was tired of her daughter and then she was a hot little spirit!!! I guess no adult wants to be told what to do... but she was amazing while I knew her. Sometimes I find pictures of her riding horses and posing for glamour shoots, or naked in the bubble bath!!! I hear stories of how independent and strong she was. You can see that in you. I hope this gets easier for you and the shock of it all passes quickly. I love you!! @jakeimnotsure we love you too!
It is an extremely hard thing to lose a parent or a grandparent that you are close to, admire and love. Treasure your memories and it's okay to cry. Trust me, most grandparents adore their grandchildren. Write your memories down now, so that you won't forget. I still remember how sad I was when my last grandparent died - my paternal grandmother. Sending you a virtual hug.
So sorry, @hethur240! Grandmothers are so special and important. I'm glad you got to know her so well and that she influences you so much. She will stay with you the rest of your life, in fond memories - and every time you catch yourself doing or saying something like she did. Cry all you need to - and share your memories.
She was a very special lady, Heather, and I know she meant the world to you and your family. @auntdeb took the words right out of my mouth. There are no rules for grieving. You do what you can and what you need to do and just know that you have so many friends who care for you and we’re here when you need us. Sending lots of big hugs your way. Love you. ❤️❤️❤️
Heather you know we are always here for you if you need us!! We love you lady!!
My condolences, my friend. Hugs from me.
Many thanks, @melinda010100. I appreciate it.
Hugs, @hethur240. You cry all you want. There are no rules for grieving. Eventually the happy memories will outnumber the sad ones. Just remember to be gentle with yourself along the way.
Oh, my dear, I'm so sorry... I understand how you feel. My father left this year. I believe in the immortality of the soul, we will certainly meet with them. Hug you, my dear
You do you and she is always with you in your heart. I still talk with all of my loves that have gone on before me. Love to you
So sorry to hear of the loss of your grandmother. They are truely special and each brings a special love to the family. It's difficult to lose them, I will be thinking of you❤️
I didn't know her before her last few years when she was already going, but she had one heck of a personality!! She's the kind of old lady I aspire to be one day, full of energy and stories, secrets and random ramblings!! Her secrets were my favorite, she wouldn't tell you the secret, but she would tell you she had one and leave you burning with curiosity!! She loved baby girl and remembered her on her last good day. She was always kind unless she was tired of her daughter and then she was a hot little spirit!!! I guess no adult wants to be told what to do... but she was amazing while I knew her. Sometimes I find pictures of her riding horses and posing for glamour shoots, or naked in the bubble bath!!! I hear stories of how independent and strong she was. You can see that in you. I hope this gets easier for you and the shock of it all passes quickly. I love you!! @jakeimnotsure we love you too!
It is an extremely hard thing to lose a parent or a grandparent that you are close to, admire and love. Treasure your memories and it's okay to cry. Trust me, most grandparents adore their grandchildren. Write your memories down now, so that you won't forget. I still remember how sad I was when my last grandparent died - my paternal grandmother. Sending you a virtual hug.
So sorry, @hethur240! Grandmothers are so special and important. I'm glad you got to know her so well and that she influences you so much. She will stay with you the rest of your life, in fond memories - and every time you catch yourself doing or saying something like she did. Cry all you need to - and share your memories.