Haha, well - one could argue that since I am using it medically that it isn't necessarily self destructive. And, imo, the coughing aspect of smoking cannabis is inducive to healing the cilia of the lungs as it helps break up debris and mucous in along the membranes of the lungs. :) But, hey - who am I to say what is and isn't destructive? ;)

Thank you for your kindness and your support. Being able to share these things in my life, I think, is a major part of finding the way to healing. Otherwise, I shun the emotions and experiences and label them as "bad" or "wrong."

<3 It'll be long, surely - let's hope I can really begin to find the beauty within it all though. The pain, emotional, physical, mental, can make it difficult to grasp that reality, and instead slip away into darkness. I'm doing my best to find that middle ground though.