To find hope, follow the light ?

if it were that easy ...

and then ?

as catstar filosophy defines hope as one of the gates to hell (so stick to the facts and have less disappointments) the light is probably put there by the devil or sheytan in monotheist terms

on of the issues with steemit is you cant link youtube videos from the same video that have different offsets, like for instance if Assembly has one big stream of their event you would need to make multiple posts to show or as illustration several entries inside the vid or else i dont even think it will display more than the first one.

Another demo whih, even if not the most impressive, shows how my machines are of the past ... they'll never be retro , just like the steam deck it wont appreciate in value only devaluate but

im sure i cant run this on the raspberry pi 5 , or the refurbished (cost around €49 with 2 years warranty and is great computers for all but post a.i. era crap) i3 and i5 boxes

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the world ?

i hear ONE thing there... other than ukraine being bombed in the west (well they WERE shooting 15 years before the war, it made headlines once a year it was almost like an event, i bet those pro russia extremists must still be somewhere) and a joke about a US ambassador saying Israel was justified to conquer the middle east on biblical grounds

which someone told me wasnt actually a joke or fake news (but its still hella Trump) and

after escobar and el chapo , now they assume giving wild west warrant posters (1000 per sicario ? 15kk for the man himself?) is gonna stop fentanyl and coke ?

well ..

it didntreallly after escobar, kali or chapo did it ?

and

did i dream this or did someone tell me someone in their family got fentanyl on scrips ?

here the best you get is ibuprofen or dafalgan

i never heard about anyone ever getting the good stuff on scrip xept my aunt who got morfine pills but she had advance fybromyalgia and it actually helped her continue her daily life and drive her little car around

and then ?

"de" groendal , you say ?

erpe-mere ?

i heard about it in a distant past

sounds like a place i wouldnt wanna be

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a nice sine-oriented colourful thing by camelot :

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and

... the money for the chiropractor comes from family

technically i could beg it in a styrofoam cup considering the actual amount paid after i get the rest returned but even so, as a homeless i would need an address or else no bank account or health insurance because no adress or and for the wallet

so

if i wasnt stuck for life before

we sure are now, sleeping twice a day and more than last year , zero income, BEGGING like a 12 year old from family

the future's looking bright !

tschuess .. dont expect or ask anything from me plz, at this point ? YOU CANT BE THAT STUPID AS TO EXPECT SOMETHING AFTER ALL THAT

meanwhile ziekekas cars are ready for the kids at 3:30 when it rains

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lesser beings would haver resorted to american solutions by now