A traveler who doesnt`t travel
It has been almost 6 months now since I have left Germany and decided to live homeless like a bum and free like a bird.
Eager to see the discover the world and myself. Free of rules (at least a lot of them) and just do and go whereever it pleases me.
So far this has been Malta and Thailand. And not a lot of Thailand. One with the most tourists, Phuket.
I live in a bubble here. A street made for martial artists and fitnessjunkies. Healthy food and drinks on every corner.
You meet people from around the world, some of them look pretty mean but most of them are super friendly.
And why shouldnt they be? They are on holiday, doing what they love and going for boat rides, eating exotic food and having a great time.
I do the same.
As much as I want to travel, I want to stay here.
I am meeting people from everywhere, from every relegion and mostly we dont talk about this.
are the questions many converstions go.
A common denominator with love for the sport is uniting the people here.
And still....something is missing which I cant figure out what it is.
I think it is a mix between uncertainty where I go from here mixed with the good old what if?
What if I go broke? What if I made the wrong decision? What if this, what if that?
This week is not going so well for me so far. I have lost the nail of my big thumb and it is kind of stopping me from training as it hurts a lot. Which is also bringing some dissatisfied with myself and the feeling I dont give my all with the time I have here.
But also I have to give myself some credit. I have lost 10 kg, I am doing something many just dream about and took life and my happiness in my own hands without the possibilty making an excuse or blaming others in case I fail.
Did I find a new home? Yes
Thailand is amazing, it sure can become a home for many travellers.I guess what's missing is some kind of routine perhaps, to me the vacation can become a little tiresome after some time.But on the other hand as you said so many people would want to be where you are now😁Everything will be great!Im sure you are in the right direction, on the right path;)Get well soon🌹
I think so, too, Sometimes I just get frustrated for actually no good reason but writing helps :-)
Our biggest curse is that we never feel completely at piece and satisfied. We are programmed this way so that we will always keep moving and changing.
I think however, that we can fight this programming.
But just like with everything in life it takes hard work and patience.
It seems the more we slow down though the bigger the voice becomes in our head, and we have to face thoughts we don't usually have to because we are always distracted. I think we have to accept these feelings and welcome them because they allow us to find more answers to who we truly are deep inside.
I actually wanted to write about soemthing else but suddenly I kept thinking and thinking.
This never be satisfied man who lives in many of our heads is a curse and a blessing. We should aim to constantly better ourselves but also be satisfied and happy what we achieved and what we got.
A small grade between those to seems to be the holy grail in a way.
And I also agree with you about accepting those feelings and kind of embrace them but not take them too serious as we know they gonna pass and be replaced.
Being a spectator in a way.
But also writing helps to get something out of your system :-)
Writing definitely is good therapy. Because if we let the thoughts stay in our head, or fight them, they become stronger and can even become a nuisance.
Like you say we can't take life too seriously. I think that is definitely key. I've had quite a lot of problems in my life with negative thoughts and depression, the best medicine for me has always been to realize that I have to be my own best friend. Sounds cheesy but I think it's true.
Sometimes we push ourselves too hard and sometimes not enough. Like you say somewhere in between is the holy
Grail !
Thanks for sharing. Good Job! Very inspiring #behappy
When people start to read the book of life from within themselves they tend to come across one particular page and get stuck. It is good to see you getting onto a new page with your life.
I like that metaphor.
Trying to always be reflecting and evolving.
Your post title caught my eye. As I have travelled myself a lot on my feet and in my mind too. I do find with a lot of people who call themselves travellers are actually more like tourists disguised as travellers. When you see those so-called travellers lugging everything with them like loads of camera gear, lots of clothing and probably brought their own kitchen sink with them. Especially when you see them from their social network platforms staying in fancy hotels or rented homes. To me that is living like a tourist cos they have surrounded themselves with cotton wool like still swimming in their own comfort zone. Whenever I travel I just take a 25 litre racksack, tarp, firebox for cooking, sleeping bag and 3 set of clothing. No fancy hotels for me I just sleep beneath the night sky and breathe in that morning dew every morning. I think once in our life we should all take a jump without a parachute jump and I totally respect what you doing too.
sounds pretty adventurous your traveling style :-)
I have 2 backpacks I think the big one is 75 litre. It holds pretty much all my stuff I own.
I want some comfort but the kind of traveling you are decribing sounds nice and maybe I will try that, too.
I want to walk at some point. That would probably be the time than for that :-)
If you have found a new home it's great man!
I still want to travel but I have found a place I am happy to call home somehow even if I live in kind of a hotel :-)
Ouch, I can imagine the pain. I lost my toe nail due to longboarding before.
Anyway, you don't have to leave if you are happy there. Phuket can be touristy but it is nice. There are some countries closer to Thailand you can visit too...
Yes, I will maybe do that or maybe not future Flipstars problem :-)
I am not even sure how it happens but I dont enjoy the missing toe nail. It was getting better but I just got stuck at soemthing and it hurts again.
I enjoy living here for now a lot because I also have a purpose for being here which is training and probably I am bit frustrated atm. But it will pass
The most important thing is to have a purpose to stay in a place.
That's so amazing @flipstar. you seem as an awesome person! been backpacking myself for a while, and it's simply just the best thing to do in life... Happy you found a place to settle in... wish you much luck
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Thanks a lot :-)
Not sure to settle but nice to find places you can call home :-)
Great post it' always nice to see people find something that they were looking for no matter how long it takes! :) @filipstar
Great post btw!
I also write about my travels check it out :)
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Great!! You are living your life in your own way!! No Boundaries!! Fly everywhere like a bird..
I will :-)
Hey man, respect for your courage do go into uncertainty. I believe you have a lot of questions, is it right or wrong etc. I can Imagine. But theres one thing that is clear, it always goes on. Wish you the best of luck and happiness. :) I follow you and your way. Keep on telling hows live and what your doing. May the force be with you!
Thank you :-)
As long as it goes on and we are enjoying the ride there is no real reason to complain I guess :-)
that s true ;)